欺骗

时间 · 到底过得快吗？  真的没有人会知道 · 连续的几个礼拜 · 每天都睡不到 · 几个小时 · 每每都把自己逼到最后一秒才来用工。有谁知道，到底有用吗？
这次的考试，完全不像之前那样。一直接到你们的电话，知道吗？ 我真的快疯了！

之前，因为你 · 我欺骗了妈妈
到现在，2年了 。 我都还不敢告诉他。
你知道这种感觉多难受吗？
老妈对我的好 · 关心 · 爱 ·
换来的，确实我这个女儿的背叛 · 的欺骗
我真的不知道 · 因为你 · 我变到怎样了？
她 · 是我这一生中最爱的女人 ·
没有妈妈 · 我真的什么都不是

哪里知道 · 现在
你却要我继续的做
继续的骗人
对于另一个· 她
你有我开始骗了
每次听到他向我说那些话的时候
我真的很想 很想告诉他
你到底是怎样的人！
我真的不想在欺骗他了
一个好好的女人
就给你糟蹋了

放心
过了今天
我就会回家告诉妈咪了！
我一定不会再骗他了

而另一个 · 她
我也会选择告诉他这一切的
如果你还是不该
别怪我
我只是为你积点阴德
老爸
曾现在还能改
就改吧！
不要再继续玩火了

我真的不知要怎样就你了

英文 · 不是我的菜

最近
真的太压力了
如果没有压力
我也不会到这里抒发我的感情吧！

不知为什么
最近
他们好像跟我离得越来越远了
我真的希望
会是我只得想太多
朋友
我真的不能没有你们

也许
这就是我对于朋友的感情吧
不过
是寄托
是友情
我真的
都不能失去他们

明天的 英文考试
相信我
真的 不知要读些什么
一直以来
对我来说
最烂的英文
再加上 那么低的分数
明天
我到底需要加多少油呢？
我真的不希望
考试前 什么准备都没有啊！
这不是我要的考试

我重来 都没那么无助过
但是
又有谁会理你呢？
朋友大家都个忙各的
剩下的
就只有自己就自己了吧
但是
英文真的不是我的强项
话说
小妹我说英文还好
但是
对于文法 我却是一窍不懂
到底
要怎样
才能 让我的语法进步呢？

英文 真的很难
愿天保佑
保佑我的英文
真的能过
就算低空飞过
我也开心了～

【保庇】

To My Daddy

Am i too BAD to you?

Dad, i know.. 

I shouldn't do that for you..

Always think of how bad you are

But i know

You  are still my beloved DADDY

Feeling sorry for not wishing you 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'

Hope you will know

I will always be your daughter

Although i cant support you right now

But

I hope i can try my best on my study

Graduate from here with FLYING COLOR

I hope 

I can be the proud of you

I hope

My life 

With Mummy, Nicholas, Joanne, GongGong

can be better after i have graduate

Hope 

Are the main objective for me

To stay strong

To work hard 

To study well until this moment

Sorry for that

Not wishing you for your 48's Birthday

I know your life also tough

I know you still loving me

But daddy

Please don't me anymore reasons 

To hate you

I really don't like such feeling anymore

I want you to be my PERFECT DADDY

I want you to be the one who SUPPORT me till the end of the day

Not dare to comment for you 

Not dare to message right now to say 'happy birthday' for you

Even not dare to Skype you for it

Please apologize me for this

Trying hard to memorize all those things for my exam 

Thanks dad <3

Thanks for your call just now

Feeling warm for what your tell me

Hope it is TRUTH

Hope can see the rainbow after the rain 

*can understand right?

Now, keep on listening to this songs..

Love the lyrics so much

Hope to be as tough as the lyrics

Hope can fly, jump.... to reach my dream!!

C'mon, nothing can make me down.. 

God, i believe in YOU 

Believe that God won't close all my windows and doors!!

暂时 · 逃离

连续考了3科

面对的

不是平时有的压力

这一次

终觉得 

不懂怎样做都考不好似的

而且

感觉也越来越强烈

我真的好想变到很懒了啊

到底 怎样呢？

唉

不想那么多了

今天考完了 Physiology Psychology

其实

我还是会做的

但是

不懂为什么

心里还是那么的忐忑

放不下心呢？

幸好

有朋友的陪伴

晚上

就去IPOH 唱歌了

第一次去的歌房

感觉还是很不错

唱完了

好像还不够似的

【我就是爱唱歌】

p/s:虽然不是很好听啦～

with pretty girl..JiaYi

Yng and JiaYi

my dearest friend [ WeiYng ]

Driver today -芝麻 

再加上

糖水街的牛腩面

一级棒啊！

哈哈

好了

今天就放纵下吧！

明天

再继续努力！

晚安～

Stay Strong · Be Positive

Is 6am in the morning

I still awake

not because of INSOMNIA

is all because is A LOT OF THINGS I HAVEN'T SETTLE

Exam will be on next Tuesday

Study nothing but wasting time on my dinner + supper

Whatever la!!

Date many long-time-no-meet friends

with the reason to meet them up

BUT

only myself have the ONLY answer 

Is all because

I don't want to face the reality anymore

I know that i need to hold the book for long time

No one can save me out

I hate this subject

I hate of understand the anatomy parts of body

Is all out of my control

How you want us to understand thousand of research 

by million of people 

with only 1 semester

Is kinda FUNNY you know?!!!

Time to stay beside with friends 

Always is the happiest moments for me

Talking, Gossiping and starring at each others

Sometimes, you will not know why you will laugh suddenly when looking them

Sometimes, you will really need their supports

Moving out from hometown

Staying at a new place

No one is important than a friends 

Appreciate all my friends a lot!!

Muack <3<3

Don't think too much..  

I need some rest now...

Physiology Psychology

Please be with me

Let me understand you

Let me be your friend

STAY STRONG

Good Morning :)

Sharing ♥ With Love

Degree Life :  Year 2 Semester 1

It's gonna end soon!!

You know what

I really learnt a lot of things this sem... 

When read through the reflective journal of myself.. 

I really appreciate a lot that i had this chance to really open my heart 

Share all my inner feeling to my dear group mates

Is really hard for me

I already try to keep it in my heart for a long time..

Thank for all my dear friends

With Grace ♥ Someone who help me a lot!!

With PS Tan ♥ Someone who treat me like her little sister

With Sam ♥ Someone who always gossip with me

With ZongYan ♥ Someone who so warm-hearted 

With Kar Poi ♥ Someone who had an argue with me before

This time

I gonna post it at here..

As a reflective for myself

I wanna to make it as a new insight for me

I wanna to move forwards..

I wanna to have a happier life

#Journal 1: Different children have different positions around the tree

I can understand that I am on the way to achieve my dreams. 

Choosing to become the child who keeps on climbing up the tree in the picture, it unconsciously shows that I’m the one who is not satisfied by my life now. 

I will force myself to achieve even higher than now. 

I’m not the one who can easily satisfied with my life. 

I don’t like to be a follower or order by someone. 

I noticed that once my friends rejects my ideas or suggestions, my emotion will change very quickly and it had made me angry to my friends easily without any valid reasons. 

So I know that the only way for me to achieve my own dreams is to 

CONTROL MY EMOTIONS

♥ Love Letter ♥ Giving to my dearest Groupmates ♥

♥ Full of Love ♥

#Journal 2: Sand Therapy

 I had chosen a lion and giraffe to represent myself .  

【Lion = Powerful】

 I understand that myself is the one who never give up easily for all the works that I doing right now. I will pay all my attention and effort in order to make it succeed.  

【Giraffe  = Long neck allow me to view all the things from a wide perspectives】

 I think that all the decisions that I carried out right now is not as perfect enough because I still can’t think of all the consequences for every steps that I do.  

【Situation = Seaside】

 There are a lot of challenges in my life that I can’t estimate, it just like the sea which we can’t estimate the weather. We will not know when will have the tsunami, the storm or any others changes. 

#Journal 3: The Most Important and Terrible Things For Me

【The most important thing  = being in a leadership position】

For me, I enjoyed my life when being agreed by others. So, I will make sure myself always stay in the top position and it is the only way for me to prove myself towards others. 

【The most terrible thing = being ignored by others】

I know that I’m the one who scare to be alone and being abandoned by my friends. Once I away from my friends, I will think that the way other judge me will be totally different. Perhaps it is because they are the fully support for me when I am away from my family and they are the one who can help me to solve all the obstacles in my life. 

Our Drawing... Expressing our INNER world

This is MINE...

#Journal 4 : Timeline of Life

【The most threatening event = Divorce between my parents】

I had kept it in my inner heart and I also feel shame to share those things out to my friends. 

It had made me remembered back those happy moments with my parents. 

I still remembered how good of my father to buy whatever things that I want for me. 

UNFORTUNATELY, divorce had happened on them and all the happy moments had become the past memories for me. 

Then, I also can understand all the important people that had teach me a lot during my lifetime. 

I also can open my heart to share all those things to my friends. 

It is important for me because I believe that we shouldn’t have any secret between our friends. 

The bond between us also become stronger because there are many things we had share and  it really help us a lot to understand our friends.

Bangkok - Thailand

270812 - 300812

短短的4天

却让我的生命有不同的体会

27日 第一次 跟朋友出国

两个人

两个女生

就这样

开始了 第一次的旅行

可能

对他来说 已经不是第一次

但 对我来说 这 是我的第一次

从来 没想过

我居然会那么的大胆

鲁鲁莽莽 的 订了机票

什么也没准备

就开始了

第一次的 异国旅行

曼谷 · 背包客的天堂

我 · 的第一次

对他超期待的

在那短短的4天

看到的

就跟在自己国家完全陌生 不同的东西

一个 缺乏语言能力的国家 

一个 连英文也不会的人民

居然 能够把旅游业发展得那么好

而我们 马来西亚

不论什么 都比别人好

居然 能够那么的失败

在那里

虽然 连基本的泰国话都不会

但是

却不负众望的 买到了很多好吃的东西

英文再烂 还是能跟他们沟通的

因为 BODY LANGUAGE 才是 世界共同的语言

哈哈

吃到了

好吃的芒果料理

就算 拍了很长的对也是值得的

但是

为什么

我们两个大头虾 却把 那好喝的

芒果冰沙 给忘了带走

幸好 还有 喝到3口啊！

可怜我的伴 一口也没喝到

我的钱

都花在了吃

虽然 价钱不贵

但是 还是会 想饿死鬼似的

拼了老命在吃啊！

真的 很好吃

辣辣辣辣！爱到死啊！

晚上的也是

点了海鲜

不只是好运还是坏命

天 就下起雨来了

好的是 我又看到了 曼谷人的毅力

就连下雨

还是继续做生意

大家 一起 帮忙搭帐篷

不论是游客还是员工

大家都一齐动手把棚给搭出来了

哪里像我国 我付得起钱 你就得帮我做事

给钱的人最大

【超鄙视这种人的】

不好的  就是 我们买的东西都淋湿了

哈哈

但 无可否认

没那场雨

我们也不知道远远这就是他们的生活

他们的态度

THUMBS UP!!

完全不够用的时间

去到的地方都不多

就要回国了

我真的发誓

我以后 一定还要去曼谷玩

不一样的心情

不一样的生活

不一样的路人

不一样的国度

不一样的态度

就是我一直在寻找的

我不要 不要我的人生都在 压力中度过

永远坚持着 放松 的生活态度！

I'm Back!! Malaysia